SELL-OUT, REALIST OR DREAMER?

Lately I've been thinking alot about the following question (or something like it):

Am I a sell out to feminist/equality movement because I want to fall in love and get married?

I am a modern woman. I want to have a career, I want to be able to support my family and my husband (if necessary). I'm driven, mobile, financially independent and in charge of my own life.
Why is it, however, that even now at the age of 24.75 I feel like something's missing? Why is it that at or near the top (depending on my mood) of my plans for the next 5 years, I've put marriage?

Fortunately (?) I'm not alone in this dilemma. Even the headstrong Suzanne recently wrote in her weblog "...but there are things that are important to me that I don’t have...fall madly in love and to be swept off my feet by the man of my dreams...". Granted, she included a reference to starting her own company in that same sentence, but that doesn't change the fact that this fairy tale romance, this ideal is a focus and priority for many of us "modern" women raised in the progressive new era of equality.

Take a look around, girls everywhere are stuck in this issue, I don't think we even realize how much own decisions regarding family planning, travel, language use and work, aren't just decisions...they are statements, signals that indicate our independence, our freedom, our acceptance of the struggle of those of the past. But what, if anything do we owe those who fought so hard so that I could face dilemmas like this now?

During the first term of my first year of University, I took a course on Women's Issues in Canada. We examined current events with a lens that brought out the the way they effect women...science and fertility, sports, war, media, and just about anything else we wanted to explore. It remained one of my favorite courses and I still think back to some of the discussions we had. But what does that mean? Now that I have this additional awareness should I be fighting battles? Should I be spreading the word? Should I curse those who are acting anti-women?

I guess in a way, the fact that I'm asking these questions means I'm not taking the past for granted, that I appreciate those who made my ideal life and choices possible. But I'll probably always be left asking if I'm doing enough...

DA - DA - DA - DA - DA - DAAAAAAA!!!!

Warning from NHL.com:

Please be advised that too many late nights watching games can make you late for work or school and generally take you out of your routine. Remember the Stanley Cup Playoffs are a marathon, not a sprint!

Its playoff time!! Although I can't watch the games here in the Netherlands (even if I had a place to watch them, they all start between 1 and 4 am), I'm excited to see 5 of the 6 Canadian teams in the running. The cup is coming back baby!!